Have you ever had “one of those days”? Well, I had one recently. In fact I have so many sayings regarding that day. They go like this….”It seems like I take one step forward and two steps back”….”Once my feet touched the floor I hit the ground running”….”There’s so much to do, so little time.”
That’s what I found myself saying the other day. Every time I say something like that I begin to feel overwhelmed. You too?? Good, then I’m not alone…phew!
When I let the pressures of life begin to sweep over me, I can’t seem to, “See the forest through the trees.” (Hey, there’s another one.) It’s true though.
I have much to do in preparation for our move to Bolivia, and the details are beginning to mount. There are several piles building up all around me. One pile is “the health/travel info” pile, another is “financial updates/budgets” pile, still more piles, like the “how to transition your family well” pile. Oh yeah, did I mention the piles of laundry and dishes too?
When I do a 360′ of my life right now, it’s easy for me to get anxious and overwhelmed. What do you do when you feel this way?…Me? I begin to worry and fret and find myself at the refrigerator every spare minute, trying to soothe those knots in my stomach with something chocolately. I know that all familiar feeling in the pit of my being. It’s a sense of wanting to control things…ok….everything! Yet, it leaves me with a sinking feeling every time I feel the weight of those piles stacking on top of me. It’s not a good way to feel, and it’s not a good way to lead life.
What can bring relief? I know my old way of dealing with this just makes me pack on the pounds and still leaves me feeling uptight. BUT, there is hope! A new way, although it’s not new. “It’s as old as the Bible”. In fact, it IS the Bible that is bringing me joy in the midst of uncertainty. God’s word. Fresh and real and active. It cuts to my heart and my marrow. God has a way of bringing me back to the reality that HE is in control and that HE knows what he’s doing.
It was in the midst of that “one of those days” that God’s word hit me square in the chest. “Find rest, O my soul, in God alone; my hope comes from him. He alone is my rock and my salvation, he is my fortress, I will not be shaken.” Psalm 62:5,6.
Oh, how I had almost missed the mark. At times like that, I have a choice to make. Will I go my way? or will I follow His way? Doesn’t his way sound so much better?
I’m so glad that God did it again. He helped me remember that He is my source of strength, provision and hope. And He does it ever so lovingly.
The next time I find those piles peering at me and wooing me to put all of my focus on them, I will not let them bury me.
Yes, I have work to do and ok, the laundry needs to get done, but I will choose to do the best I can, “one day at a time and one moment at a time”. I will walk with the Lord and let him direct me and find joy in the process. How do they say that?…”Let go and let God!” Now, that’s a saying worth saying!!